novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- novembre proudly endorses orangepeeler 1 - "Quitting is harder than I thought it would be. " -phil 2 - "see, the thing about quitting is its obvious challenge. not to our wills, but to our deterrents. do you know what i mean? if you grew up doing the opposite of what everybody told you to do, it's going to come inside and call you home as well. this is why i am a creature of habit with too many odd little addictions. i live in opposite-land. is deterrent spelled correctly? i won't know because i should look it up but then i won't." -me 3 - "home is where the heart is and memories are in the heart. home is where you make memories; therefore, memories are home and some thoughts are dangerously repetitive." -me 4 - "So what shall a person do when she discovers that opposite-ness has made such a nice little home in her heart? "For you see, Elka, I have always treasured the opposite-ness in me. The ne'er-do-well. But the exigencies of the present would force me to look at my heart and shake my head and rue the opposite-ness that has made its home in it. And when I rue it, will I hurt the truest part of myself because I have distrusted it? Or will what seems the truest part of myself evaporate like a dream, the other hidden parts revealed?" -phil 5 - "If feelings are dangerously repetitive, I will be contradicting myself mercilessly until I die. But like you, I cherish my ne'er do well heart. So I probably won't consciously change this encrypted behavior, these encrypted emotions. We are annexed, we are annexing, we are a couple of ne'er do wells. Beating proudly in oppositeland. "And when you asked, Will what seems the truest part of myself evaporate like a dream, the other hidden parts revealed? I have no answer. I have never been able to do so[, to rue it]." -me i love phil. 1:52 pm - 02.04.04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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