novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- isles, portions, clear soda there is the shake in the stomach and two overly-polite children watching jurassic park the third while i attempt to make popcorn. i am paid thirty dollars before creaking home and sitting on the couch for two hours unmoving. my stomach hurts and i am in that mindset where it feels like everyone i know is having more fun than me, even though i secretly understand i've romanticized it because it happened to them and not to me. an example; jeff walked around safeway all night and i am amazed by safeway, the minute colour schemes and the secretive club cards. i have rollerskated inside grocery stores, sat in isle 4 with an old friend and talked for forty five minutes with a box of medium-flow tampons in tow, participated in a fruit and vegetable fight for a movie in their produce department. the frozen food isle is calculated, scary, reassuring. everything is frozen and static. everything is just as it was when i'd eat it for dinner fifteen years ago.
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