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novembre

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past the past

i had forgotten how the frogs must sound
after a year of silence, else i think
i should not so have ventured forth alone
at dusk upon this unfrequented road.

-edna st. vincent millay

i was going to write something about how people tend to look back on their teenaged years with a sort of nostalgic fondness, regardless what catastrophic events may have taken place.

my theory is that most people tend to do this because most people spent their lives as teenagers uninhibited by adult worries. they began to play at being adults, but they were not completely saddled by rent, mortages, unemployment, debt, debtors, broken hearts and dead cars. things like that were only just beginning to happen.

you know how self-centered most teenagers are; they don't think of their own mortality. don't fear drunk drivers, lifeless workaholic networkers, rotten teeth, bum knees, middle age. things like that aren't in their vocabularies. and this is why i think most people tend to look back and wish things were as they were before, regardless.

but forget it. nevermind. adulthood is about taking care of yourself while frogs are falling from the sky.

there's something beautiful to that, to being scared and navigating your life at the same time. so nevermind.

in other news, i have an idea for a book. two books. give me a year.

10:43 pm - 10.16.04

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