novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it's like living without knowing love. you can live, but your bones sigh. if your environment is drab it colors the air a dull grey. you inhale your surroundings because you are porous and you feel your bones sigh. sure, that chair was cheap. but after sitting in it for a couple of hours, your back begins to hurt. just like that. i spent the afternoon in bed, reading. listening to music on a cd walkman because i haven't set up my stereo yet. there was no place to put it, before. today evelyn and i went to ikea and bought me another bookcase. i am one of those people who, if they had their way, would have absolutely beautiful, erratic furniture. but i needed a big stable bookcase that cost less than $50 and fit into evelyn's car. within these parameters, what do you do? you go to ikea. my room is too full of inexpensive ikea furniture. it is like living in a wooden form of legoland. i keep telling myself that it won't be so bad once everything is unpacked, once i actually decorate. i have boxes full of photographs, knicknacks, curtains, patchwork flags, strange little lights. an olde style victorian banner i made to spell out "strength." afterwards evelyn and i drove to the parkway, the pieces of my new bookcase rattling between the seats of her car. we ate heavy mexican food and watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind in the dingy endearing speakeasy. the parkway doesn't have movie theatre seats. you can sit at a table and drink beer, or eat pizza leaning back into a sunken couch with your feet up. the last time i went there, the chairs and couches set out for the audience were mismatched secondhand. they have all been replaced by ikea furniture, and now my back hurts. Clementine: I wish you'd stayed. 11:30 pm - 06.19.04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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