novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i kept on walking and wished him good luck with that today as i was walking along the man-made shore of lake merritt, i found i had the impulse to just chuck my bag into the lake. or myself. i just wanted to jump into the lake. that mossy, dirty lake. (and whenever i am near cliffs or ledges i experience vertigo) just after this weird epiphany, i saw a homeless man about fifty feet ahead of me. he bent over and gingerly took off his dress shoes and black socks. he folded the socks over the shoes and turned towards the lake, edging his body closer and closer. slowly he stuck a toe in, the big toe on his right foot. and then the whole foot, and finally both feet. 10:45 pm - 06.17.03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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