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(i like using words inappropriately. moreover, i like inventing phrases.)

down in the marrow. (adj. phr.) ("dah-ow'nn-n-th'-mAr/ow")
to be down in the marrow is to wake up happy and planning, grocery shopping for french toast ingredients and coming home to fleas, piles and dry hands. the telephone call you expected an hour ago has not yet introduced itself to your day. two hours. three. you make the french toast yourself, leaving four or five pieces on a blue plate in the oven, in case the phone rings. you watch a movie and smoke a cigarette leaning out the window, listening to the oak tree's leaves rattle in the wind. your cat is whining outside. you begin to bite your fingernails and wonder about demise or possible telephone-call-interception. you catch a look at yourself in the mirror from an odd angle and notice how stocky your face is, thick in places you didn't think it was.
four hours and three messages left on another person's voicemail. you do the dishes and return dishtowels to the neighbors, turning down farmer's markets and miniature sailboats and finger puppets because you can't leave the house in case the phone rings you have plans you are waiting for a call you begin to pick at your face, wondering about the ingredients in face masks. your cat falls asleep at your feet.

five hours.

(see also lazyboned. sad backbone. dirty blues. one-fifth lonely.)

3:56 pm - 09.15.02

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