novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it will feel so strange to live alone again. and suddenly there are so many things to do. plans to walk to the library to photocopy more birds from nature books to plaster on every wall. plans to stock up on strange, un-fully-prepared foods at costco so that i may learn to cook inadvertently, pulling curtains out of a bag filled with curtains (why do i keep bags that are filled with things like curtains?), swapping light fixtures, giving away broken futons and covering up old loveseats. accidentally spilling whiskey and diet coke on the newly redecorated loveseat while james plays the guitar and croons directly in front of an open window at three am. at target i found the original parent trap and the graduate. i will watch them with the attention that i give to favourite movies in the sparse new living room, my eyes darting to the spaces in the walls that heather left behind. she is standing on her twin's shoulders in the middle of a lake. he is standing in front of her, watching her pull on a stocking. 3:02 pm - 06.25.02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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