novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- further mouthal moods there are many things to stop me from being adventurous. like what? being sleepy and not eating every day until after i get home from work at four-thirty, and then eating a stream of heavy lulling foods. tired muscles. a to-do list miles long. piles of laundry. whiner. yeah. what does heather think about your heavy foods? what do you mean? she's a recovering bulimic too. and you eat puke foods every night even though you live in an apartment with an ancient, unpukable toilet. the unpukable toilet is a good thing. but what did she say about the heavy foods? she is your roommate. she said it was awesome that i can eat foods we'd usually feel so guilty about. that's ...great. you're mad at me.
doesn't it feel like we're going backwards? it does. but only in this respect. everything else is unbelievably happy lately. so why don't you stop? because it is easy not to. historically speaking, my habits are groomed this way. it is harder to change especially while busy and inundated with changes. but i'll stop soon. everything is soon with you. with us. that is habit too. all you are is habit. you're a ray of sunshine today. you're too sensitive. go to sleep. 11:54 pm - 03.28.02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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