novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- mufflo the wonderous is probably going to get searched at the airport today muffie is coming today so i am conceptually up at an early hour to clean for her arrival but of course i ended up online to air my love for her on the internet. is it true that first loves never die? we have not seen each other in two years. memories remain intact but my mental image of her has faded at the corners and bends of her face so much so that she floats and wavers in my head. muffie the friend-cloud. there was something lost in the translation of two years that we hope to get back starting today; this is an understatement. on the phone last night i realised she wouldn't be here for very long, and i cussed into the reciever. her pause on the other end reminded me how long it has been, how coarse and strange i must have sounded to her at that moment. isn't it jarring to mislay contact and pick it up with such a large gap, and new personality flaws at the same time? i wonder how she remembers me, what she will think of my dirty apartment. (and what name she would suggest for the new used car. the debate still battles on and the choices are as blurred as ever.) 6:01 am - 03.27.02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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