novembre ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i need a vacation. i have elaborate plans for the future that never get implemented because i keep forgetting that a minute from now is the future. when i think about everything all at once, i get overwhelmed and don't want to leave my house. things are torn up in parts for a reason; people don't have the capacity to remember everything that ever happened to them so that they'll continue to live their day in, day out routines. dad surprised mom with a black lab puppy. dinosaur got a kitten named dorothy. owen has one too, named stuart. beautiful tiny animals, solely dependant. i have what to love me unconditionally? how selfish of me to want a pet; how stupid of me to think that things don't grow. i always forget that the future is a minute from right now; whenever i remember i get angry like why can't i get a break. why do puppies and kittens have to grow older, why do i have to sleep at night when i could be finishing my to-do list and happy birthday to david. 11:04 am - 11.14.2000 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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